I haven’t been posting lately, because school seems to love my expressions whenever I find a new task to be finished when I think I’m already done with a previous one. Thus, I was busy.
I’ve even gotten so busy to the point I couldn’t even go to the Monday and Friday YFC worships. But it’s paying off now, because my schedule is getting less and less hectic, and I can start going to worship again. But that’s only the tip of the iceberg. Every year, there is a Youth Camp held every year at the school. At the Camp, those who want to be part of YFC, learn more about the worship experience and learn more about God and his work. Anyone can go to this camp, regardless of year level. And current YFC members can also serve in this camp by joining the YCTP, or Youth Camp Training Program, where they’ll be oriented on what they can do to help at the Camp.
When I heard about this, I decided to ask for the bulletin applying for the program. Even though I wasn’t sure if mom would let me go, I still tried because I really wanted to go. And, as luck would have it, mom allowed me, even though I think she didn’t like it, because the training program was to be held on the holiday. Mom had insisted I stay home, but I said otherwise.
Now, if you look at the title, it says; “Winning and Losing.” I wrote it like that, because for some reason, all ups in my life come with a corresponding down. I’m not being pessimistic, it just seems to be that way.
A friend of mine, has been a very, very good friend to me for the whole duration of my grade school life. If it weren’t for her, I would be probably one heck of a loner. Yeah. But these days…she’s being distant…it’s as if she’s being pulled away from me. I’m not saying I don’t want her to be anyone else’s friend, in fact, she’s got a lot of friends. What I’m trying to say is, whenever I try to talk to her, and that other person is there, I suddenly become invisible to her. I’m not mad at her or anything, but I just wish that I won’t lose her.
Anyways, I’m currently very happy, because other than that, and a few other things, everything’s all right! Also, I’m quite hooked on one of Paramore’s old songs, titled “Swim in Silence”. I dunno why, but it’s just soo appealing. I guess it’s because I can relate it to when someone I care about, just doesn’t care about me, quite the opposite, and due to my stubborness, I can’t accept that. Anyways, here’s the song from youtube. 😀